Day Eighteen

It's very painful to watch your child struggle in life, by making bad choices. Many years ago, as my child became a young adult, I learned the meaning of "free agency." One day I felt almost all resources were exhausted, I took one last step to try and answer the questions of "what can I do for my son?" I fell to my knees, and pleaded with the Lord for an answer. The answer came through a "still small voice." "He is My son also. Love him with all your might. Pray for him with all of your power. Go to the temple." At that point I made a commitment that I would go to the temple more regularly, and love and pray for my son. That is all I could do, and at that time I thought it would take a miracle to soften my son's heart.

I am very grateful to the Savior for my son's life. He and his beautiful wife and two young children were sealed in the temple this March.

Day Seventeen

Do I willingly give all I have to serve the Lord? In my church calling? As a wife? My role as a mother? As a neighbor or friend? At the temple this week, I covenanted to give everything I have to building up the Kingdom of God. Do I fall short? Yes, indeed I do. I like to look at the overall picture though, it seems a little better.

Giving my all as a mother... I have great relationships with my grown children, and grandchildren. My patience is waining when it comes to my teenage boys. I never knew how much they could tax me. Am I giving my all when it comes to raising my boys?

I accept church callings, even when they are difficult to accept. I am willing to take on any church calling and give it my all.

As a wife? Mostly yes, however I do have my moments, days, and issues. That is a question for another blog.

As a neighbor or friend? I could do better. Yes, I could.

My spiritual growth? I'm trying to be more in tune with the Spirit, by studying the scriptures and saying more meaningful prayers. It's a constant battle with my natural self. But, I'm not giving up.